Grieving Doesn’t Mean I Lack Faith

For a long time, I felt pressure to be “over it.”

People asked, “Are you healed?” Some assumed that if I was still grieving, I must not be trusting God. I’ve learned that many people don’t know better; not because they are unkind, but because they haven’t experienced loss in the same way, or at all.

Grieving does not mean I lack faith.

As a disciple of Jesus Christ, my faith matters deeply to me. And I’m learning that sadness does not disqualify discipleship. Faith can be strong and tender at the same time. Leadership does not require emotional numbness. And spiritual fruit is grown over time; not demanded on a timeline.

Biblically, people look at our actions and our fruit. I welcome that accountability. At the same time, God created me with sensitivity and connection, and He uses that wiring through my creativity and calling.

Scripture reminds me that “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted” (Psalm 34:18), and that God finishes what He starts; patiently (Philippians 1:6).

I’m learning to release resentment and extend grace; both to others and to myself. Even if I prove my faith, some will still misunderstand.

That doesn’t change who I am.

I am grieving. I am growing. And I am faithful.

And maybe; if you’re reading this; you are, too.